I’m a victemless pedophile that supports and participates in pedophilia sublimation (drawings and animations of what those drawings and animations were drawn and animated with being victimless loli drawings and animations, victimless pedophile and anasteemaphile (size difference) sex toys, the victimless usual things as you all already know) and I have a question (or few) that I have been pondering for a while. I only make a small amount of money and most people are just not compatible with me as friends despite my pedophilia let alone with my pedophilia and I can’t see old friends anymore because I need to ensure they don’t find out about my pedophilia, that aren’t in close proximity to me (logistical reason), and I don’t have very much money or time to go out to see people.
So my questions are, how do you deal with the excessive loneliness of not being able to have friends as a victmless pedophile that supports and participates in sublimated pedophilia or how do you make friends as a victmless pedophile that supports and participates in sublimated pedophilia? Also can you also deal with the loneliness just by having pets especially if you don’t make much money and don’t have much time to go out despite your pedophilia let alone with? Do you regularly talk to other victimless pedophiles or not bother for online safety (including privacy)? How do you deal with the fact of future deaths of friends and/or pets and the grieving of them?
These are a lot of very complex and specialised questions although I do think that they are very important. I’m interested about the pets option specifically as well because systemically (including globally) at least some dogs and cats have better lives being cared for and owned by humans although I’m not too sure anyways. Please discuss and let me know what you think. Thank you for your time.
I ended up adopting a 7 month old puppy a few months back. I’ve had dogs for over 35 years. My last 2 passed last year and I wanted to go pet free for a while. I didn’t want a dog but she fell into my lap. Thank goodness she was already well housebroken, is very smart and learns quickly. She’s also super affectionate which has helped me quite a bit fight off life’s blues. She’s can be a little too hyper at times, but I’m starting to really like her. She’s very sweet! Just some food for thought.
It’s definitely possible to have normal friends while being a pedophile, but I can certainly understand not wanting to spend a lot of time with them. There are friends that I only see 3-4 times per year on holidays and that’s good enough for me. They don’t know about my sexuality and I don’t need to talk about it during our brief time together.
There are also MAPS who I consider friends online that I spend time with every week. Within 3D virtual worlds similar to SecondLife, we can meet, role play / age play, build, watch movies, or whatever in a safe environment that doesn’t contain any real CSAM. Some people I have met in these spaces have been my friends for over 10 years, and one became my real life fiancée.
As for pets, I have raised dogs for most all of my life, but after my last two passed away of old age last year, I only have a cat and two rats. They are far easier to care for than dogs. I hear rats only have about a 3 year lifespan, and once they go, I am interested in trying to raise guinea pigs.
To be honest I feel suicidal often but I know I will never go through with it. I just use artwork and AI to help me cope with the fact that I realized I have an attraction to teenagers and just being young in general. I never will partake or harm anyone ever as I am a survivor of CSA and know how it feels. However knowing that I am not alone and that there are people out there who are like me makes me feel more at ease. I love animals because I connect with them when people don’t understand me… but I enjoy the company of others more. My family doesn’t have any idea but I have a feeling some know… I just know that I am not alone and that helps me… and that some people will love me no matter what. That’s what’s important. I just have to come to terms with it and it’s hard.
Now more recently, one of my doll owner friends and I were able to get together for a weekend. We finally got to meet in person and meet each other’s girls. His girls are amazing, being all silicone, the detail is so realistic! Silicone dolls aren’t really suited for sexual purposes, it can easily tear if you’re not careful. Like me, he loves them as if they were his adopted daughters. Like myself, he doesn’t “use” them in that way either! “Adopted” to him because 2 of them have Ukrainian personalities. And his youngest is clearly Asian. She’s his favorite!
Mine stand in as my real daughters. He has upgraded his dolls from TPE to silicone over the past few years. They will last much longer. He ended up giving me his original TPE Ukranian girl (head) and his original TPE body that was used for a number of his girls as he slowly replaced them with silicone versions.
So now I have one adopted daughter. Her replacement is now her sister to her. We changed her eyes from green to blue and I renamed her. He asked me to do that which I was happy about. She’s beautiful, the first of her model line. Of course he got another new girl that I absolutely adore!
Meeting someone you’ve only talked to online was a new experience for me. Knowing we’re both MAPs and getting to know each other in person was such a great feeling! Also that we have the same interest in our dolls. It helped cement our bonds of brotherhood! That almost no one irl knows about! If they did, the judgements and condemnation would come raining down! THAT is extremely disheartening!
I am lonely, I don’t have friend irl nor online and by this point honestly I decided to stop using social media and exclude myself from the world as much as possible since my mental health is worse and worse and social media doesn’t help. I only use Instagram when necessary, YouTube and enter in this and other few forums.
The way I have found the best one to deal with loneliness is to distract myself as much as possible by watching TV and reading stuff that I like and staying in communities like this and create a sort of “bubble” to stay safe… I know it’s not the ideal, but it’s ok, happens. You know? I can’t get help at the moment and honestly I don’t even know if I really want to. This is my ultimate coping mechanism. Also like to have some time with my cat and dog.
I am pretty frustrate with my life. I feel like I was BORN to do not fit in. Not only I am a nepiophile, but also I have SEVERAL opinions that don’t fit on most society standard, i feel things that people don’t such as the fact that I don’t love anyone in my family (Yeah, my parents are no different) and also have several stigmatized feelings. I am bitter, I am bitter and angry at this world. I find most “normies” people takes on most things brain rotten. When I started to isolate myself on purpose it started to feel really enjoyable and comfortable, like I was finally on a bubble which protects me…
I know exactly how you feel and it’s awful and I wish you didn’t have to suffer. The people shouldn’t have to suffer for things that they cannot control. It’s bullshit. I wish I could give you a hug. I’m sorry I’m not closer, but I’m offering to be your friend. Because I don’t have friends either, and I relate to this a lot.
