Context: adult, CSA victim from 10-16
Im constantly scared of my parents. I can’t even be around them, I get scared and distant with them out of fear. They are very annoyed by it and take it personally
They know im a CSA victim (unsure if they believe it), and im scared how that will play out if they ever figure out my attractions
Overall, what im saying is, im scared if they will outright say im lying if they find out im a pedophile, or much worse, try to disown me/hurt me,
Does anyone else deal with these fears? How do you cope with them?